nevermind

okay, amy didn't come to stay. i didn't really expect her to since i'm moving and both of our contracts are over in about two weeks. but yesterday when i got home from work amy was having a hard time. our hometeacher came and gave her a blessing by the end of which amy had decided to go home. it wasn't that it felt wrong to be in utah, but however right it felt to be here, it is more right for her to be home.

so we left last night around 8 to take her back up to idaho falls. got there about 11.30. slept. got up around 9 (i was hoping to leave by 8) and then we had to get all of her things out of the car and get her music off my itunes on the lappy. and then around 11.30 this morning i left. we hugged goodbye in the living room of her parents' house while her nephew told his grandma that we weren't letting go. and then i drove home.

i stopped once for gas and once for food (they don't have jack in the box here) and got to work around 3. after a few bouts of tears, i felt sufficiently sane to write a blog post. now, aren't you all glad of that?

amy, i love you and miss you, but i really feel that you were right in going home. i want only what is best for you. keep in touch.

she's baaaaaaack

amy came home on friday. i was not there because my mom needed a ride to the airport on saturday and so she took me to ogden where i did laundry and then drove her to catch her plane. and then on saturday i went with amber to her brother's house to play guitar hero while we "housesat."

so when i finally got back to my apartment on sunday, i was so excited to see her. i walked in and immediately went to give her a big hug. she'd had a really hard day, but it was still wonderful to see her. we're not sure how long she'll be here, she still needs to find a job and a place to live once our contracts at casa dea are over. eech!

and we got to have scripture study and prayer together which is something we've never done before, but i want to keep doing. it was really nice to read together about peace (alma 32, i think) and then finish it all up with a prayer.

we also went to ward prayer afterward, but that wasn't as fun. apparently, while i've not been going they've been changing things. there are now two prayers, opening and closing, as well as opening and closing hymns. all. four. verses. now, i'm all for singing and stuff, but that's a little ridiculous. i'm not gonna lie. and then we have announcements and spotlights. for the love, people! ward prayer should be short and sweet.

anyway, i'm really glad she's back.

amy

i flew to la tonight. my flight attendant was really funny and put me in a really good mood by his sense of humor. unfortunately, the good mood didn't last.

as i was getting off the plane i got a call from amy, my roommate. she asked me when i would coming home and i told her a week.

she told me she is moving out this weekend. going home to idaho falls.

while i'm gone.

in la.

i haven't seen her since last week, wednesday. i told her that was fine and that she needed to drive safe. she told me to come visit her.

once we got off the line, i started to cry. for some reason too little sleep and bad news don't mix well. i got off the plane last and went in search of my luggage, hoping no one noticed the ninny-ness of me. got to the baggage claim, walked immediately outside so that i could cry in the semidarkness. called my mom and talked to her about it. she didn't really agree with me when i said it was the best thing for amy, but she let me cry. she told me to call my dad since he is always very calm. i told her that i usually am.

but then i had to get off the phone and find my bag so that i could meet my brother-in-law, clint. i also had to stop crying so that clint wouldn't think me a ninny. by the time he got there i had stopped crying enough that i don't think he knew that i had been. we drove to his house and i got to see eden, flynn and cami.

we joked and had some fun before going to bed. the end. :)

finally

amy sent me a text this morning saying that she was okay and in salt lake staying with a friend.

i love the girl, but i really wish she had told me this before i had spent most of the night and some of the morning calling her. i was up until 2.30 calling her - every half-hour - and then i started again at 7.

i'm glad she's all right.

friend

my roommate, amy's engagement broke off last week at her fiancé's instigation. he feels like he doesn't really know her.

and then today i found out that a friend drowned in utah lake over the weekend.

amy is taking this all pretty hard. i haven't seen her yet today. not sure where she is.

i'm gettin' married in a month

i don't know which month.

so i have this roommate that always used to say that. and now that she is really engaged, no one really believes her. but i still think it's funny. my roommate, amy brower, is engaged to david armstrong. they were dating for about a week before they decided to get married. they are getting married august 27th. funny enough, this is my second roommate to go about getting married this way. last summer and now this one. weird.

but then today i also got a call from one of my best friend's in high school asking for my address so she could send me a wedding announcement. she - unlike my roommate - has been dating this guy for about three years, i think. she's getting married july 10th.

sometimes i feel like all my close friends are entering that noble state (my other best friend from hs is already married). i don't yet know if i feel left behind, or if i'm still satisfied with my life. i'm okay with not being married, i don't feel like i'm old enough to. though, i sometimes act like i'm about five so it stands to reason. meh. we'll see.